I just woke up and felt so bothered when I've read your offline messages telling me not to get upset with you... So I was thinking what could possibly happened or if you did something wrong to me.
Then I immediately sign in to Nimbuzz and asked you what happened. You told me that you already got your lab results and your blood sugar now increased to 180. Tsk... for 6 months you've been eating too much sweets. I can't blame you for doing so because somehow I'm eating a lot of chocolates and ice cream too just to make me feel relieved... you know I am getting too depressed when you're not with me...
Just a while ago you told me you've bought 2 boxes of Twix and chocolate bonbons. I guess that will be the last chocolate bar that you will gonna buy for this month. So from now on WE need to do some lifestyle change and need to have a healthy diet. LOL I just hope I can apply that to myself... LOL too stubborn...
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Why am I missing you too much? You're a million miles away from me now and the only thing that keeps us bonded is the only hope that someday you and me would finally be together again. Endless heartaches seems like it would never end. The only thing that's left here in my room were the memories of "US" and the picture of you and me on the wall and in my wallet. My heart continues to bleed everytime I would start to remember a lot of things that happened in the past months... seems like its only me that can't move on...
I just wanna be happy... I don't wanna be alone anymore... If only I can ask you to just go back home and be with me again...
Don't listen to me... I'm just being childish again...
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Read this... I'm sure you will love it...
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There was 0nce this guy wh0 is very much in l0ve with his girl. This r0mantic guy f0lded 1,000 pieces 0f paper cranes as a gift t0 his girl.
Alth0ugh, at that time he was just a small fry in his c0mpany, his future didn’t seem t00 bright, they were very happy t0gether. Until 0ne day, his girl t0ld him she was g0ing t0 Paris and will never c0me back. She als0 t0ld him that she cann0t visualize any future f0r the b0th 0f them, s0 they went their 0wn ways there and then…
Heartbr0ken, the guy agreed. But when he regained his c0nfidence, he w0rked hard day and night, sl0gging his b0dy and mind just t0 make s0mething 0ut 0f himself. Finally with all the hard w0rk and the help 0f friends, this guy had set up his 0wn c0mpany ..
Y0u never fail until y0u st0p trying. 0ne rainy day, while this guy was driving, he saw an elderly c0uple sharing an umbrella in the rain walking t0 s0me destinati0n. Even with the umbrella, they were still drenched. It didn’t take him l0ng t0 realize they were his girl’s parents.
With a heart in getting back at them, he dr0ve sl0wly beside the c0uple, wanting them t0 sp0t him in his luxury sedan. He wanted them t0 kn0w that he wasn’t the same any m0re; he had his 0wn c0mpany, car, c0nd0, etc. He made it! What he saw next c0nfused him, the c0uple was walking t0wards a cemetery, and s0 he g0t 0ut 0f his car and f0ll0wed…and he saw his girl, a ph0t0graph 0f her smiling sweetly as ever at him fr0m her t0mbst0ne and he saw his paper cranes right beside her…
Her parents saw him. He asked them why this had happened. They explained, she did n0t leave f0r France at all. She was ill with cancer. She had believed that he will make it s0meday, but she did n0t want t0 be his 0bstacle… theref0re she had ch0sen t0 leave him. Just because s0me0ne d0esn’t l0ve y0u the way y0u want them t0, d0esn’t mean they d0n’t l0ve y0u with all they have. She had wanted her parents t0 put his paper cranes beside her, because, if the day c0mes when fate brings him t0 her again… he can take s0me 0f th0se back with him…
0nce y0u have l0ved, y0u will always l0ve. F0r what’s in y0ur mind may escape but what’s in y0ur heart will remain f0rever.
The guy just wept… The w0rst way t0 miss s0me0ne is t0 be sitting right beside her kn0wing y0u can’t have her, see her 0r be with her ever again……… h0pe y0u understand.
Find time t0 realize that there is 0ne pers0n wh0 means s0 much t0 y0u, f0r y0u might wake up 0ne m0rning l0sing that pers0n wh0 y0u th0ught meant n0thing t0 y0u….
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Sometimes I didn't know if I am still worth it
for the love that you've given me...
I didn't know if I really deserve to be trusted again...
I know I've already betrayed that trust
but I am really trying to pick myself up
and bring back myself to the same old Jean that you knew...
sometimes I feel that I don't deserve you anymore...
we used to be happy and contented with our lives
was it just a test? I really don't know...
all I asked from you is to keep on holding on
and that I really wish that someday
we can be together again...
I know there's still tomorrow for us..
I know there's still "You and Me..."
I've promised to you
even before this relationship started...
I promised that I will never leave you
and you're the one that I want to spend
the rest of my life with...
I almost broke that promise..
or perhaps I should say that
I've already broke that promise...
but there you are...
giving me another chance to stand up
and prove to you about the promises I've made.
You're giving me another chance
to fix everything that's broken...
broken by me.. I'm so sorry...
maybe I am not really good in loving you...
I thought what I've given you was the best..
maybe it was the best love that we both shared
that's why you're trying to save this relationship
and forget everything that I did to you...
I should have love you even more...
Do you really believe
that we can save this relationship?
I know your answer would be YES...
There you are... trying to pick me up again
and trying to wash away all the pain inside me...
why are you so good at it?
It's as if you've never been hurt...
you're simply amazing...
Tonight I will give it all to you...
I will give you my everything...
my love and my life...
and I'll just sit here
'til you come back in my arms again...
I love you honey...
Happy 4 years and 9th monthsary...
I love you so much...
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The storm in my life has finally ended… For all the things that happened this past few months, I thought that my relationship with my girlfriend was already through. I thought that the problem between us can never be fixed. It was purely misunderstanding ab0ut a l0t 0f things. I’m sorry if I can’t elab0rate all the details here.
F0r the past six m0nths we’ve been arguing even f0r the smallest and n0n sense reas0n. I guess that argument in relationships are just normal. But wh0 says it can’t be avoided? 0f c0urse it can! When 0ne is trying t0 explain s0mething then the 0ther 0ne sh0uld listen. If his/her idea is 0bjecti0nable t0 y0u then d0n’t y0u ever fight back! But instead try y0urself t0 remain calm and speak in a l0wer v0ice/t0ne because s0metimes if we yelled back then y0u are just making the situati0n even w0rst.
At that time I became so depressed. I can’t find someone wh0m I can talk t0 because my friends were all busy and I d0n’t want t0 b0ther them 0nly t0 share my depressing stories. I kn0w I have t0 d0 s0mething t0 cure this depression s0 I c0me up with this idea t0 search the internet f0r s0me articles ab0ut relati0nships and how to deal with problems in a relationship. And that really helped me a l0t. Thank G0d my relati0nship with my girlfriend is running sm00thly again. I’ve learned a l0t fr0m my mistakes and I will never let myself t0 d0 the same mistakes again.
I love you t0o much hon… let’s forget the past and move on… Happy monthsary… mhuahh
1. I w0n’t let go of love - they say that the 0nly constant in this world is CHANGE… you’ll never know what will happen tomorrow… you might wake up one day and everything has changed but I can assure you that my LOVE for you will never change… we both know we’ve been through a lot of trials for the past months… we may have a lot of misunderstanding… we may have a lot of fights… but we both know deep inside that we can never let go of LOVE… for love is something that makes us happy and contented in life… money and everything means nothing if we don’t have someone who will love us… your love for me is all I ever wanted… your love for me makes my life COMPLETE…
2. I w0n’t let go of life - there would come a time that I almost given up… but on that day your name show up… I don’t know if you are an angel in disguise… you’ve got me that time we exchanged our Hi’s… On that day I started believing… On that day I began dreaming… On that day I began realizing… That my life is worth keeping…
3. I won’t let go 0f my friends - To my friends namely Theresa, Rozelle, Eva, Ate Lynn, Julius, and Ate Camille… guys… wherever you are right now I want you to know that I missed you all… we may become very busy with our own lives but I know that the friendship that we’ve had still remains in our hearts… and will last for a lifetime… And to my newly found friends here in the blogosphere… I hope that the friendship will continue to grow in our hearts… I don’t just treat you as an “online friends…” We may not see each other personally but for me you are my “real friends.”
Its been 5 m0nths fr0m n0w since I’ve started t0 earn s0me extra inc0me just by bl0gging. I am n0w earning just like the n0rmal empl0yee even I’m just here at h0me. S0me neighb0rs wh0 didn’t kn0w ab0ut bl0gging even call me as a bum. I d0n’t care as l0ng as I’m c0ntented t0 what I’m d0ing then it’s fine with me.Last week I gave my m0ther s0me extra cash s0 she can buy whatever she wants. I can’t explain the happiness that I felt when I l00ked at my m0ther’s eyes. F0r the first time in my life I gave her s0mething that came fr0m my 0wn p0cket. If 0nly my m0m can read this…. y0u just d0n’t kn0w h0w happy I am whenever I see y0u smiling at me.
In my teenage years my m0m and I always keep 0n yelling each 0ther. S0 many issues and arguments…
pp if 0nly I can write and share them but s0me t0pics were s0 c0mplicated that’s why it can’t be written here. I didn’t realize that time will c0me that we can still have a g00d m0ther and daughter relati0nship just like what’s happening n0w.
When was the last time that y0u said
“I L0VE Y0U”
t0 y0ur parents?
I can’t remember…. but 0n that day s0mething inside me keeps 0n telling me t0 say I L0VE Y0U t0 my m0m… and s0 I did. I gave my m0ther the warmest hug that I can give and tell her that I l0ve her. It feels like I’m a l0st kid that’s been l0nging f0r a hug by her m0m f0r a l0ng time.
D0n’t tell me that I am being s0 unfair. 0f c0urse I am thinking 0f s0mething that I can give f0r my dad t00. But I d0n’t kn0w what makes him happy. I kn0w happiness is n0t ab0ut m0ney and gifts but in my entire life I didn’t get the chance t0 give him a gift. My father l0ves watches s0 last week I’ve started t0 search here 0n the Internet and I saw this Techn0marine watch that l00ks like the 0ne that he wants t0 buy the 0ther week that we went t0 the mall. I guess I have t0 save m0re because that watch is really expensive and h0pefully I can buy that watch and give it t0 him 0n Father’s Day.
T0 my parents…. if y0u c0uld 0nly read this…. I just wanna say s0rry f0r all the wr0ng things that I’ve d0ne… and I als0 wanna say thank y0u f0r everything… I l0ve y0u…
