I have to edit all my online albums (from the past) and set it to unlisted option. I know I've made a promise that no matter what, I would never delete all those pictures.... They're still important to me as much as you do. Just in case you would notice what I've done with our pictures, forgive me but I needed to do so. It's still there just in case you wanted to see them again. I would never delete any of those pictures. They were memories of what we used to have. Our relationship failed and didn't lasted like the way that we want to. I am sure by this time you've already moved on for what was happened. If only I could spare you from getting hurt but things just happened and I have no power to undo it. I seek forgiveness although I know it will never be easy for you to do. Again... the pictures are still there. I just wanna start a new chapter of my life without being linked from the past.

I just woke up and felt so bothered when I've read your offline messages telling me not to get upset with you... So I was thinking what could possibly happened or if you did something wrong to me.

Then I immediately sign in to Nimbuzz and asked you what happened. You told me that you already got your lab results and your blood sugar now increased to 180. Tsk... for 6 months you've been eating too much sweets. I can't blame you for doing so because somehow I'm eating a lot of chocolates and ice cream too just to make me feel relieved... you know I am getting too depressed when you're not with me...

Just a while ago you told me you've bought 2 boxes of Twix and chocolate bonbons. I guess that will be the last chocolate bar that you will gonna buy for this month. So from now on WE need to do some lifestyle change and need to have a healthy diet. LOL I just hope I can apply that to myself... LOL too stubborn...

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Why am I missing you too much? You're a million miles away from me now and the only thing that keeps us bonded is the only hope that someday you and me would finally be together again. Endless heartaches seems like it would never end. The only thing that's left here in my room were the memories of "US" and the picture of you and me on the wall and in my wallet. My heart continues to bleed everytime I would start to remember a lot of things that happened in the past months... seems like its only me that can't move on...

I just wanna be happy... I don't wanna be alone anymore... If only I can ask you to just go back home and be with me again...

Don't listen to me... I'm just being childish again...

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Read this... I'm sure you will love it...

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There was 0nce this guy wh0 is very much in l0ve with his girl. This r0mantic guy f0lded 1,000 pieces 0f paper cranes as a gift t0 his girl.

Alth0ugh, at that time he was just a small fry in his c0mpany, his future didn’t seem t00 bright, they were very happy t0gether. Until 0ne day, his girl t0ld him she was g0ing t0 Paris and will never c0me back. She als0 t0ld him that she cann0t visualize any future f0r the b0th 0f them, s0 they went their 0wn ways there and then…

Heartbr0ken, the guy agreed. But when he regained his c0nfidence, he w0rked hard day and night, sl0gging his b0dy and mind just t0 make s0mething 0ut 0f himself. Finally with all the hard w0rk and the help 0f friends, this guy had set up his 0wn c0mpany ..

Y0u never fail until y0u st0p trying. 0ne rainy day, while this guy was driving, he saw an elderly c0uple sharing an umbrella in the rain walking t0 s0me destinati0n. Even with the umbrella, they were still drenched. It didn’t take him l0ng t0 realize they were his girl’s parents.

With a heart in getting back at them, he dr0ve sl0wly beside the c0uple, wanting them t0 sp0t him in his luxury sedan. He wanted them t0 kn0w that he wasn’t the same any m0re; he had his 0wn c0mpany, car, c0nd0, etc. He made it! What he saw next c0nfused him, the c0uple was walking t0wards a cemetery, and s0 he g0t 0ut 0f his car and f0ll0wed…and he saw his girl, a ph0t0graph 0f her smiling sweetly as ever at him fr0m her t0mbst0ne and he saw his paper cranes right beside her…

Her parents saw him. He asked them why this had happened. They explained, she did n0t leave f0r France at all. She was ill with cancer. She had believed that he will make it s0meday, but she did n0t want t0 be his 0bstacle… theref0re she had ch0sen t0 leave him. Just because s0me0ne d0esn’t l0ve y0u the way y0u want them t0, d0esn’t mean they d0n’t l0ve y0u with all they have. She had wanted her parents t0 put his paper cranes beside her, because, if the day c0mes when fate brings him t0 her again… he can take s0me 0f th0se back with him…

0nce y0u have l0ved, y0u will always l0ve. F0r what’s in y0ur mind may escape but what’s in y0ur heart will remain f0rever.

The guy just wept… The w0rst way t0 miss s0me0ne is t0 be sitting right beside her kn0wing y0u can’t have her, see her 0r be with her ever again……… h0pe y0u understand.

Find time t0 realize that there is 0ne pers0n wh0 means s0 much t0 y0u, f0r y0u might wake up 0ne m0rning l0sing that pers0n wh0 y0u th0ught meant n0thing t0 y0u….

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Sometimes I didn't know if I am still worth it
for the love that you've given me...
I didn't know if I really deserve to be trusted again...
I know I've already betrayed that trust

but I am really trying to pick myself up
and bring back myself to the same old Jean that you knew...
sometimes I feel that I don't deserve you anymore...
we used to be happy and contented with our lives
was it just a test? I really don't know...

all I asked from you is to keep on holding on
and that I really wish that someday
we can be together again...
I know there's still tomorrow for us..
I know there's still "You and Me..."

I've promised to you
even before this relationship started...
I promised that I will never leave you
and you're the one that I want to spend
the rest of my life with...

I almost broke that promise..
or perhaps I should say that
I've already broke that promise...
but there you are...
giving me another chance to stand up
and prove to you about the promises I've made.

You're giving me another chance
to fix everything that's broken...
broken by me.. I'm so sorry...

maybe I am not really good in loving you...
I thought what I've given you was the best..
maybe it was the best love that we both shared
that's why you're trying to save this relationship
and forget everything that I did to you...

I should have love you even more...
Do you really believe
that we can save this relationship?
I know your answer would be YES...

There you are... trying to pick me up again
and trying to wash away all the pain inside me...
why are you so good at it?
It's as if you've never been hurt...
you're simply amazing...

Tonight I will give it all to you...
I will give you my everything...
my love and my life...
and I'll just sit here
'til you come back in my arms again...

I love you honey...
Happy 4 years and 9th monthsary...
I love you so much...

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